I'm mourning the death of my relationship. Yep, just broke up yesterday...around this time. Cried my eyes out. There's nothing to do actually.

How long issit to get over a broken heart?

How long can I move on?

How long before I can smile sincerely from my heart?

So tired of faking smiles.

If the expression "cry to death" can really come true...can I really do that?

"There's a somebody I'm longin' to see
I hope that he, turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood
I know I could, always be good
To one who'll watch over me

He may not be the man some
Girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Someone to watch over me
Someone to watch over me"
~Renee Olstead - Someone To Watch Over Me~

I'm crazy in love with this song. I've known this song a looonggg time ago, but when I heard it again while watching Fame, I was so mesmerized by this song. It's sung by Asher Brooke in the movie, but I like Renee's version more.

So finally we performed yesterday. I only managed to take photos of one costume only coz after that, I had no time to take the second one. We're all dead tired and just wanted to go home. But I liked this costume the mostttttttttt coz it's ballet theme and I felt like a princess hahahah *impian jadi balerina yang tak tercapai*

Just when I thought my sleep would go back to normal........now I have...SORE THROAT!

Yayyyyyyyy............NOT!!!

It hurts to talk, to swallow, to everything...I can't eat properly now.

Sickness.........won't you go away? I'm performing on Sundayyyy!! Gimme a break, will you?

Finally my lack of sleep endssssssssssssssss!!!!

It ended when I almost fainted at my boo's apt on Saturday, scaring the hell out of him. Sorry, babe. I was talking to him when I felt a hit of nausea creeping up to my throat and his voice sounded soooo farrr awayyy and I could feel the darkness started to close on me. I had to lie down for a few minutes to make sure that I wouldn't puke.

Geez, the last time I almost fainted was when I was at this flag ceremony while I was in junior high...10 years ago??? Damnnn..

Anyway, when I reached home, took a shower, then zonked out for 12 hours.

Ah, life.....

Freaking sleepy. Couldn't sleep well since last week. I've been sleeping at 3 a.m something and then waking up at 7 a.m. It didn't matter while it was still a holiday last week because I could take a nap in the afternoon. And even if I didn't, I'd still asleep at wee hours. It didn't matter then coz I didn't need to think.

But now that work has started....dangggg I'm cranky all the time. Worse, I fell asleep at 11 p.m something, woke up at 2 a.m, then couldn't sleep again until 5, then woke up again at 6 a.m.

SERIOUSLY?!

I feel like a freaking zombie. PMS-bitching-moody zombie. Who needs to work and interact with stupid CS. Gah.....

And not, it's not that time of the month yet.

I feel like crashing. Or just curl up and sleep and never wake up again.

If only I could.

The other day, I was stopped by the traffic police in Bunderan HI. I was going to PI from my home, and it said that the road was closed from 16.00-19.00. Mengingat di jam mobil gue masih 3.50 sore ya gue hajarrrrrrrrrrrrrr aja lurus. Eh diberentiin polisi boks.

Dia: Mbak, kalo udah jam segini gak boleh lewat.

Gue: Tulisnya jam 4 kok, Pak. Dan skg blom jam 4.

Dia: Iya, kalo tulisnya jam 4, artinya jam 3.45 udah gak boleh lewat.

Gue: Napa gak ditulisnya 3.45 aja kalo gitu???

Dia: Itu lampu kalo udah kuning berkedip tandanya udah ngga boleh lewat.

Gue: Pak, itu lampu kuning ya dari jam 10 pagi juga berkedip. (Hello, I live in that area, so I should know and remember! Kurang ajar nih polisi cari gara2)

Dia: Jadi gimana ya? (sambil megang SIM en STNK gue) Mbak ada waktu sidang?

Gue: Tilang aja, Pak.

Dia: Hah? Mbak mau disidang aja? Emang mau kemana sih?

Gue: (nunjuk) Tuh, mau ke PI.

Dia: (gk nerimo gue minta disidang, gk dapet duit) Mbak saya kasih 2 alternatif, satu, SIM ini saya tahan, trus Mbak ikut sidang. Yang kedua, Mbak bisa bayar disini Rp. 50.000,- trus SIM ini saya balikkin skg.

Gue: Gak papa tuh, tilang ajaaaaa.

Dia: (bengong)..........

Gue: Abis saya gak bawa uang, Pak.

Dia: Ah yang benerrrrrrrrrrrr (ih mampus deh polisi jaman skg)

Gue: Pak, saya mau ke PI, mau ke ATM ambil uang.....so....tilang aja deh.

Dia: Ng.............ini SIM dan STNK saya kembalikan, jangan diulang lagi ya.

NAJESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! Dasar polisi cari2 aja kesalahan, padahal gue kaga salah.