"I'm looking for a way to feel you hold me
To feel your heart beat just one more time
I'm reaching back, trying to touch the moment
Each precious minute that you were mine
How do you prepare, when you love someone this way
To let them go a little more each day?

The stars we put in place
The dreams we didn't waste
The sorrows we embraced
The world belonged to you and me
The oceans that we crossed
The innocence we've lost
The hurting at the end
I go there again 'cause it was beautiful
It was beautiful

Some days missing you is overwhelming
When it hits me you're not coming back
And in my darkest hours, I have wondered
Was it worth it for the time we had?
My thoughts get kinda scattered, but one thing I know is true
I bless the day that I found you

The stars we put in place
The dreams we didn’t waste
The sorrows we embraced
The world belonged to you and me
The oceans that we crossed
The innocence we've lost
The hurting at the end
I go there again 'cause it was beautiful
It was beautiful

The rules we stepped aside
The fear that we defied
The thrill of the ride
The fire in our hearts that burned
The oceans that we crossed
The innocence we've lost
The hurting at the end
I go there again 'cause it was beautiful
So beautiful
It was beautiful"
~Beautiful by Jennifer Paige~

Ini lagu dari pelem Autumn In New York, I watched it from the middle of the movie (coz it was on TV), and by the end of the movie, tears were falling down from my eyes. Gileeeeee ni movie, gue emang gak tahan sama pelem2 yang sedih2 gitu, pasti nangis, contohnya Notebook, biarpun happy ending gak kayak Autumn In New York, tetep aja gue nangis. That kind of story only exists in the movies. No way it would happen in real life. A few weeks ago, D sms-ed me to say that he liked this movie Vina Bilang Cinta, and he wondered why that didn't happen in reality. Hahaha....if it happens in real life, it wouldn't be called a movie, but a reality show!

Nowadays, most people are busy with their work and lives, too busy to work their relationships out. When things get tough, they opt out. Nooooooo! Don't do that! You don't know what's gonna happen if you give it another try. If it works, wouldn't you be glad that you stay? And IF it didn't work out, at least you could say that you give it a try, rather than just leave?

Jet lag........jet lag............

Usually, my sleeping hours was from 4 a.m to 11 or 12 in the afternoon, but since I lived quite normally in Indo for 3 weeks (sleep from 11 at night to 9 in the morning), now that I'm in US, my jet lag's fucked up. At 4 or 5 in the evening, I would fall asleep just to wake up at 11 at night, then at 3 in the morning, I'd doze off and be up again at 6 in the morning.

Driving me nuts??

Of courseeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! Coz all my fave TV shows start at 8 p.m, and I would either fall asleep before 8, or if I force myself not to sleep the whole day, I'd be sleeping by 9 something, just to miss the shows!!! Arrrgghhhhh!!!!!!!

Right now? I've been up since 6 in the morning because I fell asleep on the couch while watching Law & Order last night.

A few days ago, I told myself not to sleep in the afternoon. The result? By dinnertime, I was so tired and almost slept on the table!

It's harder now that the school has started. I hope I wouldn't fall asleep in the class.

Please turn me back to normal!!!!!!!!

Cruisin' when the sun goes down
Across the sea
Searching for
Somethin' inside of me

I will find all the lost pieces
Heart will feel
Deep and real
I was blind but now I see

Yeah, you're the one
Yeah, you're the one
Yeah, I can't live without you

Take me to your place
Where our hearts belong together
I will follow you
Cause you're the reason that I breathe

I'll come running to you
Feel me with your love forever
Promise you one thing
I will never let you go

My everything
My everthing (you are, you are my everything)
~Glenn & Red - You Are My Everything~

I just heard this song last night, I bought this CD when I was in Indo, but it's always my habit not to listen to any of them until I was in the States (weird huh? huehuehue) and last night, I fell in love with this songggg! There's something about this song that attracted me. Anywhoooo I haven't watched the movie yet, Cinta Silver, coz it's the soundtrack from that movie. Anyone wanna send it to me??? =p

It's been so long, I've wanted someone who knows what he wants from life, and he'll try his hardest to get it, without just waiting for that chance to come. I want someone who's independent, who likes to work, who's mature and honest about his own feelings..........yang ngga gue banget gitu heheehe. He must be the total opposite of me.

Sekarang? Udah ketemu dongggggg hehuehuehue. Tapi, coz we're too different, most of the people looked at us strangely. See, he's so calm and mature while I, standing beside him tuh jadi yang gahar sekali, sampe2 sodara gue punya pembantu komen, "Non, kok beda amat ya sama pacarnya. Pacarnya tuh yang kalem2, ngga kayak Non!"

Makasih yeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

Who's that guy?? Tar aja deh complete storynya, gue ngantuk!!!

Pas di Amrik, kalau nonton soap opera bareng rumet, kita bedua pasti ngikik2 liat aktingnya yang sok hebat gitu, misalnya dengan mendelik tajam atau menerawang yang sambil mikir, "What have I done?" sambil diiringi musik yang mematikan sekaleeeeeeee.......

Ternyata....pas di Indo, gue coba nonton sinetron2. Astaga.....lebih parah wae. Emang sih, mo separah2nya juga lebih terkenal dia org, masuk TV, sementara gue cuman ntn doang hahahaha. Tapi yah, gila deh, gue tau emang ceritanya harus jadi anak SMP atau SMA yang sombong. Tapi gayanya itu loh, gak ku ku!! Dengan bergaya2 sok orang kaya (emang kaya ya, masuk TV sih!!), trus mata muter2 en monyong2in bibir sambil bilang, "Duhh, loe tau ngga sih kalo cewe yang duduk sebelah kita tuh ternyata BABUUUU!! Malu gak sih loeeeeeeee satu sekolahan sama pembantuuuuuu??"

Jreng jreng...............

Nih postingan gak penting banget yah?? Huheueuhue.....

Hari2 gue di Indo semakin singkat neh, 2 hari lagi gue balik lagi ke Amrik for my last quarter. Meskipun bakal buat maximum 6 bulan, tapi tetep aja gue bakal kangen Indo....atau emang kangen ama seseorang ya? Hihihihi.....

Tadinya bokap suruh gue balik pas Dec lagi, tapi mengingat kalo gue balik Dec, pasti dong visa pelajar gue dicoret karena gue bukan pelajar lagi, nah buat ke Amrik lagi, berarti gue harus ngantri lagi jam 6 pagi sampe bengong en kelar2 jam 11an gitu, blom lagi kalo gue lost in Indo again (lain cerita, konyol banget deh!!!). Gak mau banget kali yah? So I thought maybe I'd just travel around until I can get my diploma, which will be out 3 months after I finish school. Yah masih bingung juga maunya gimana, tapi gue pikir mumpung bisa disana, why not go around, like visiting my cousin in New York, make use of the visa???

Anyhooooooo gue lagi di kantor bokap ne as usual, en ini tulisan di monitor tuh jadinya gede2 gitu karena doi suka tulisan yang besar en jelas, jadi gak bisa lama2 deh abisnya dari ujung pintu pun kebaca.....

Sigh, I miss you right now....

Di airport, biasanya tuh banyak kenangan2 deh, biasanya sih sedih karena biasanya *daritadi biasanya2 mulu!* kalo gak gue nganterin orang yang bikin gue sedih, atau gue dianterin orang yang bikin itu orang sedih. Tapi seneng juga karena kalo di airport, gue ngerasa, "Yayyy gue mau pulang!" sama "ASIKK akhirnya nyampe juga di Jkt!"

Nah yang kemaren bikin airport berkesan banget....gue ketemu B3a.

Gila yaaaaaa! Huhauhauhua.......

Gini nih....

Pas pesawat EVA BR 237 mendarat di Jkt, pasti doang semua orang berdiri en siap2 mau keluar dari pesawat. Nah, pas lagi nunggu pintu dibuka, gue iseng2 clingak clinguk liat orang2 sekitar, abisnya gue biasa kalo naik pesawat pasti langsung zzzzzzz....Nah pas gue lagi liat2 tiba2 gue ngeliat nih cewe yang langsung di otak gue bilang, "Hmm...itu mirip B3a ya? Tapi masa gue kesana en teriak namanya? Kalo salah kan mokal bhooo!!!" *panjang ya pikiran gue? huehuehuehue* Trus gue diem en ragu karena gue pikir B3a kan di Indo. Trus baru ngeh karena akhir2 ini kan B3a ada di Taiwan....jangan2 beneran neeeeeee!

Akhirna setelah lewat imigrasi, trus pas lagi nunggu koper yang gak usah ditunggu lantaran cepetan kopernya daripada gue, gue liat si B3a-wannabe. "Ng....B3a yah?" tanya gue ragu. Lalu ni cewe UNTUNGNYA nengok en masang tampang heran, "Sapa yah?"

Wuaaaaaa sodara2, ternyata benar! Soalnya kalo salah kan doi tak mungkin menengok. Gue senyum en bilang, "Gue CN!" dan dia pun kaget. Gue udah mo nanya lagi tapi keburu liat koper yang lagi dateng. Dan gue pun langsung lari nguber koper.

Abis itu, dia pun harus pergi karena udah ditunggu, en gue pun harus jalan karena udah dijemput!

Hahahahha B3, gila yah, gak disangka2 gitu loh. Kejadian kayak gini nih one in a million banget. Who would've thought that you and I would meet in an aeroplane!!!

Ya udah deh, bokap gue udah dateng ne.....

At the airport right now. So bored. My plane boards at 8.20 am, and now is still 6 am. Duy, I would walk around the airport if my bag isn't so heavy. Victor commented last night at the airport that the bag wasn't proportional with my body. Thanks!!!! *sarcastically*

I know I promised myself that I wouldn't complain. Tapi gila yah, masa bisnisnya Eva Air tuh gak beda jauh sama Economy Deluxe nya! Cuman bangkunya agak gedean, tapi senderannya tetep aja cuman segitu doang. Gak kayak SQ punya yang bisa sampe tiduran gitu loh. Dikarenakan punggung gue yang emang gak bisa duduk lama2 kalo agak2 tegak, walhasil skg pundak gue sakit wae. Duh, I sound so whiny banget yah. Biarin deh.

Masih 5 jam lagi tar di pesawat dari Taipei ke Jkt. Duh lama banget! *ini CN komplennnn aja trus!!*

Kangen LA tiba2 *pertanda gak jelas lagi, abis kalo di LA kangen Indo, masa skg baru di Taipei udah kangen LA lagi???*. Kangen rumet, kangen Mica, kangen semuanya yang lagi disana!! Huhuhuhu.......Tapi paling banget kangen ama rumet en Mica sih. Duh dia org lagi ngapain yah? Tapi percaya kok, rumet ngurusnya bener, diajak main, dikasih treat, gak kayak yang cuman kasih makan trus tinggal pergi *senggol2 Robet* huehuehuehue.....

Wuihhhhh kenapa akhir2 ini gue ngeblog dengan PD nya ngasih nama semua lengkap yah? Dulu kan cuman initialnya doank? Ah, oh well, dia org gak bakal baca ini huehueheuhue...

Duh ni lagu di lounge kok kayak music box gitu! Apa seh! Trus makanannya sucky abis pula! Hoh, iya, tadi pas lagi ngantri komputer, di depan gue tuh org bule yang lagi mau ke Bangkok etc. Pas gue tanya apa kesana liburan, ternyata dia dokter bhoooo!!! Ganteng pula! Sayang jauh! Ngobrol2 bentar, dia nanya gue darimana, mau kemana, gimana LA etc, while gue yang masih amazed kalo gue kenalan ama dokter huehuehuehuhue. Sigh, enak yah disini kalo mo ngomong ya asal ngomong aja, kalo di Indo kan bisa2 gue diliatin dengan tatapan aneh, "Sape loe ngajak2 gue ngomong??? Kenal aja ngga!"

Ya udah lah, gue mo bengong2 lagi di lounge. Untung gue bawa 1 majalah sama 1 novel.