Gue pas hari Sabtu ke Bandungggggggggg ma roommie, Pepenk, en Wahyu!!!!! Sehari sebelomnya gue langsung pesen gepuk Ny. Ong 30 lembar!!! Sempet nyasar2 pula lantaran sodara gue ngasih taunya di Jalan Setiabudi nomer 114. Nyari2 ampe bego, keliling2................nomer 144!!!!!! Huh!

Setelah bayar gepuk, langsung kita yang kelaperan pergi ke The Peak, gak perduli jam segitu, tu tempat masih garing, demi Pepenk yang lagi kelaperan en ngidam buntut bakar. Anyway tu tempat sih emang keren, tapi makanannya gak enak! Nasi Goreng the Peak pun gak ada rasanya buat gue (apa emang lidah gue udah fucked up??). Gue rasa tu tempat cuman beli lokasi doang, tapi makanannya gak enak. Mumpung tempatnya terbuka en tempatnya bagus, kita yang narsis2 ini langsung poto2 bak model.

*cakepnyah daku hahahahaha*

Lalu kita lanjut ke Rumah Mode. Lumayan rameeeeee.....gue dapet 2 kaos wakakakaka. Abis itu lanjut ke Cascade. Itu tempat udah keren gitu, kayak mall. Tapi parahnya tu kaos gak bole dicoba. Basi, jadi cari deh yang ukurannya XXS, atau XS dan main PD beli aja. Tiba2 dateng bergerombolan anak2 UPH satu bus. Ugh, rebutan oxygen, bow! Buru2 ngabur ke Heritage. Lalu dengan berujan2an, kita nyebrang jalan ke Summit. 2 kaos lagi berhasil gue peroleh, cihuy!! Huehuehuehue..........

Next...........makannnnnnn karena udah jam 8 lewat. Cabz ke Valley buat ketemuan ama Dave en Dany, bekas anak LA juga. Karena penuh, jadi kita makannya di indoor deh. Di sebelah gue ada jendela yang gedeeeeeeee sekali, gak ada teralis atau apa2 gitu. Huhuhuhu, serasa pengen "ngga sengaja" nyenggol orang biar terjun.

*pepenk, dany, rumet, gue, wahyu, dave*

Sudahhhhh!!!!!!! Trus pulang lantaran udah jam 11 malem. Sampe rumah jam 1 lewat, nyaris jam 2 hahahaha...........Enak sih, tapi kayaknya kurang puas.

Udah ah, lagi gak PW buat cerita2..........

You said, you would do anything for your love.

Swim the deepest ocean, climb the highest mountain.

But if someone gets hurt in the process.....

Can you still fight for your love?

Don't be afraid to cry
It wasn't wasted time
We just couldn't win that fight
And I knew you couldn't stay
You had to go your way
There's really nothing left to say
But every now and then you cross my mind
And I try not to think about where you are tonight
I woke up to the sound of that song. Suddenly I'm flooded of memory about us. About what could have been. I try not to think of you, but it's quite impossible to do. I already am missing you.

Being with you brought me comfort. You're the one who understood me most of the time. Your cheeky smile whenever you caught me looking at you. Your eyes shone whenever we met. I remember how you held my hand because it was freezing. How sometimes you would drop by just to say hi or to bring me dinner (ha-ha). The long hours we talked on the phone. The support we gave each other through MSN whenever we're doing homeworks. The late dinner after your basketball practice.

But I miss you
'Cause I really miss you
There's no going back 'cause what's done is done
But I miss you 'cause I really miss you
But sometimes love just ain't enough
I miss you, I'm not gonna lie. I miss how I usually waited for you in campus. How we usually spent our weekends together with the gang. How we talked about our frustrations, and how we usually teased each other til we ended up laughing. I was filled with warmth when you showed your concern whenever I was sick. How worried you look whenever I was about to cry because of family problems. Just to know that you cared, that's enough for me.

Hey
We didn't write the rules
It wan't me wasn't you
We both know that life is cruel
I know we can't go down that road again
And it hurts too much to think what might have been

I wiped the tears from my eyes before they fell. I walked to the window with the darkness around me. Staring at the moon, wondering, missing, and cursing myself at the same time. I just missed how we usually laughed together, bringing envy to other people. I'm just wondering now if you ever think about me.

But I miss you
'Cause I really miss you
There's no going back 'cause what's done is done
But I miss you 'cause I really miss you
But sometimes love just ain't enough
Then we just had to accept that we really couldn't do anything about this. We're destined to meet, but not to be together. But the deep connection between us, I know that it wouldn't fade away ever. Love just wasn't strong enough to rise above things that we couldn't prevent.

I know we can't escape from the paths that we have chosen
But every now and then, I'm reminded
I know we can't go down that road again
And it hurts too much to think what might have been
I'm not gonna let myself drown in the past. I've moved on, but I'm carrying a little piece of you, a little piece of you and me. I'm glad I've met you. You taught me that love isn't the answer for everything. Sometimes, things are just not meant to be.

"I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave "
~Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away~

You're just not man enough for me.

Sometimes late at night, like this hour, I have the urge to go to the beach. I have the need to hear the waves crash. I'm longing for the "sea-smell". I miss the sound of the seagulls. I crave for the night wind to blow. I want everything.

But I have to supress that feeling because:
1. I don't know the way to any beach
2. The isn't any beaches in here like the ones in Singapore or California
3. The beaches here aren't clean!!!
4. Mosquitoes....
5. Crazy people late at night
6. The fact that the weather here is humid

"Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me"
~Nickelback - Saving Me~

Pertama kali ditilang!!!!!!!

Gue akhirnya kena tilang!!!

Lantaran kata polisinya gue lewatin lampu merah, yang gue bilang aja, "Gak tau, Pak. Saya kan ikutin mobil depan!"

Polisi: Yah jadi prosedurnya gini....pengadilan mulainya tanggal 9 Mei. Kalau mau, bayar 75 ribu.
Gue: Haaaaa? Mahal amat!
Polisi: Yahhhh saya kan cuman kasih tau doang.....selanjutnya ya terserah deh gimana.
Gue: Saya cuman punya 20 ribu.
Polisi: Udah?
Gue: Udah lah!
Polisi: Ya udah.......hati2 ya lain kali........!!!!!!!!!

MOFO! Gitu doang?! Roommie gue nanya, "Kalo tadi loe jawabnya minta tilang aja gondok kali yah dia?"

Anywayz, heuhuehuehue, selama polisinya gak rese sih, noban yah noban lahhhh! Kalo mulai cari gara2 ya tilang aja. SIM ditahan pun gak masalah..........besokannya juga balik...hihihihi.

Semoga gue gak kena tilang lagi...huhuhuhuhuhu.

Review of 4 clubbings........

Karena gue selama balik for good blom pernah dugem lagi, jadi gue en roommie seret Erin, Pepenk, en Welly buat pergi clubbing. Rencananya sih ke X Lounge, Vertigo situw. Jam 8 lewat, gue en roommie udah siap2. Biasa, percantik diri hahahahaha..........anyway............

Begitu Pepenk jemput, dia bilang mau ganti ke Dragonfly karena X Lounge itu banyak ABG. Gue sih hayuk2 aja, gak tau tempat seh!

Dragonfly:
Bengong, karena pertama kalinya gue dugem di Jkt, dicek KTP! Trus gue cuman bawa ID California gue. Orangnya bengong, trus liat gue en nanya, "ID?" yang gue jawab, "That's my only ID." Hohohooho keren juga. Tapi Erin en Dita pun ngomel2, karena seumur2 idup baru dicek KTP. Dan gue kena sasaran lantaran mungkin karena gue yang kecil jadi gak dipercaya. Sial.......Tapi enaknya, gak ada admittance fee.

Anyway, masuk2 ya berdiri2 dulu karena gak dapet meja. It's a bit proggressive gitu musiknya, lalu TIDAK ADA DANCE FLOOR! Pindah lah kita orang.......

Next destination.......

Mana-House:
Pas parkir, udah bengong liat tempatnya. Agak2 underground, lalu yang dateng anak Selatan semua. Biaya masuk with first drink, goban! Di dalem......bengong lagi karena orangnya kurang banyak. Apparently we came too early coz Mana-House reached the highest peak starting at midning.

Anyway abis ngabisin vodka masing2, we decided to go back to Plan A...

X Lounge:
Masuk2, udah senangggggg karena tempatnya udah oke, en keliatannya yang dateng banyak dari anak2 yang sekolah di luar gitu. Lantai bawah R&B (cihuy!) en lantai atas tuh Trance (silooooooo). Had fun, took pictures. Mungkin yang liat kita berpikir, "Anak 5 kampungan banget yah, baru pertama kali ke kota kali??"

Menurut gue, minumannya enak! Gak tau namanya, tapi itu campuran ginger ale and vodka, trus yang kiwi2 gitu juga enak. Enak enak enak! Gue suka! Admittance fee + first drink: 80 rebu.

Trus kita orang pindah lagi karena Welly ada janji sama anak2 lain di...

Club 36:
Bertempat di Hayam Wuruk (is that the correct spelling?), tu tempat ancur abis. Masuk2 aja gue udah liat cewe digotong turun sama 2 orang.

Pas di WC, gue mendengar suara cowo. Gue langsung panik en mikir, "Apa gue segitu high nya sampe salah masuk WC?"

Ternyata emang tu cowo masuk ke WC cewe karena ceweknya (I assume) mabok di atas sink. Drama pun dimulai.
Cowo: C'mon, don't pretend to get drunk
Cewe: I'm not pretending! You're the one who pretends to care!
Cowo: I'm not! I really care!
Cewe: You don't love me anymore!!

Gue, roommie, en Erin bengong karena gak tau harus ngapain sampe tiba2 aja 1 cewe yang berpakaian minim gebrak pintu WC en teriak, "HEY! THIS RESTROOM IS FOR GIRLS ONLY!" yang dijawab ama tu cowo, "Then help me carry her!!!" Dengan jentikan tangan (sumpah, keren banget tu cewe, yang gebrak pintu wc, bukan yang mabok), nongol lah 2 bouncers yang siap buat angkut tu cewe keluar, yang mabok, bukan yang gebrak pintu.

Balik lagi ke meja, liat Welly lagi negek minuman. Penasaran, gue ambil tu botol mau tau itu minuman apa. Sumpah, itu intention pertama gue karena abis itu gue balikkin lagi botolnya ke atas meja. Lalu ada 1 cowo yang mengaku2 namanya Antonio ngambil tu botol en kasih ke gue. Er......minum seteguk deh gue. Matek..........pait banget!!!!

Yang paling parah selain cowo2 suka grepeh.......MUSIKNYA ITU LOH!!!!!! Gak kuat!!! Emang sih live band gitu. Tapi lagunya adalah.....UNGU! Yang gue lagi bengong2 tiba2 terdengar, "Maafkan akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu menduakan cintamuuuuuuuuuuuuu..." lalu dilanjut dengan, "Sebagai kenangan yang terindaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.." lalu diselesaikan dengan lagunya Peterpan.

Tolongggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trus Pepenk en Welly langsung ngajak kita ke lantai atas buat karaoke. Baru kelar nyanyi Evanescene's Bring Me To Life, tiba2 dateng segebrek2 orang termasuk Antonio. Yah gue melihat2 orang yang bertingkah aneh2 aja deh.

Tapi pas liat ada cowo mabok ngancurin pill en masukkin ke pitcher, langsung gue seret roommie, Erin, en Pepenk cabz. Daripada nanti digebrak polisi en jadi masalah, or WORSE pada high en kita diapa2in hiyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! Trus Antonio yang, "Eh dah mo pulang ya??" dilanjutkan dengan cipika cipiki........gue bengong.......Welly langsung ber sori-dori-mori.

Anyway, NO MORE CLUB 36!!!

Trus kita sober up di Cafe Oh La La di Sarinah. Sampe rumah, nyaris jam 6 pagi.

Sinting!!! Tapi kita orang mikir buat keliling2 lagi kapan2 nyari tempat yang enak.

So far, the winner is X Lounge.

Lain kali kalo mo pergi liat2 tempat deh!!!

Bad day is today,
When I woke up late because I couldn't sleep as I have a cold so I was having a difficulty to breathe.

Bad day is today,
When I was planning to bring my cross stitch project to the office but I couldn't find it and my personal assistant a.k.a the maid, didn't know where she put it.

Bad day is today,
When my driver told me that my sister's class ended at 12 in the afternoon. The thing is, since her school is like an hour away from home, my dad told her to tell the driver to wait for her if her class ended early so the driver didn't have to fill up the gas once in 3 days. Usually, the driver would drive her to school at 7 in the morning, come back home, then at 3 he would leave to pick her up. Total time: 4 hours. Today she forgot to tell the driver. My father ended up yelling at her.

Bad day is today,
When AGAIN, I was amazed at the unique behavior of my colleagues. It's too long to mention.

Bad day is today,
When I accidentally bang my hand on the wall. Result? Blue black hahahaha............

Bad day is today,
I'm going to sleep......I'm dizzy...

"You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day"
~Daniel Powter - Bad Day~

Makan terusssssss!!!

I've never eaten so much food like today. Sampe2 kantor, ngemil coklat Maltesers, buat makan siang sate kulit ayam di Satay House, trus balik2 kantor udah disambut bakso yang dibeliin temen. Karena nanggung makan di kantor, akhirnya gue ngemil coklat lagi. Sampe rumah, serbuuuuuuu baksooo!!

Trus gak lama gue pergi bareng roommie en Pepeng ke Puri Mall. After buying Tide detergant and a scaling weight at Ace, 1 porsi waffle chocolate sundae dari A&W pun abis gue telen. Nganggep itu appetizer, gue lanjut ke Sandwich Bakar yang, erm....mengecewakan banget. For dessert?? Fondue di Coklat Lumer yang tempatnya di sebelah Sandwich Bakar.

Sekarang di rumah, I'm about to go to the kitchen and find some food. Thank God, I went to Carrefour yesterday hehehehehe.....

I'm gonna regret this later on, as I replied yes to my cousin's question about watching Shutter.

It started when I was browsing through the horror DVDs, selecting which ones to buy. Found Shutter and showed it to my cousin, "Here's the movie that I was talking about the other day!" she looked at it and asked me, "Wanna watch it with me?" with such pleading eyes.

I thought, heck, I've watched it before and maybe it's gonna be like last time when I watched The Grudge in America. That I won't be scared because it's the second time I'm watching it.

Well I'm wrong...

I'm scared as hell right now.

Never thought I'd say this...

But I miss school.

I seriously miss waking up, only to find out that I'm late *it happens usually when I have an 8-o'clock class hahahhaa*, finding parking easy in campus because I have a staff parking permit thanks to Syl, then going to the classroom, to either listen to the lecturer or to sms people hahaha.

I miss listening to Psychology professors, doing project, studying for mid-terms and how free I feel after the final exams. I miss spending time in Student Union late at night studying for finals with my friends, that we end up scaring each other because it's 1 in the morning.

I miss staying up late or not sleeping at all when doing my papers. I miss having the adrenaline rush and all the panics when typing my papers, thinking how should I write the finding about my research so it doesn't sound like a high school student, but a psychology student. Then I miss how I feel when the papers are being printed, how satisfied I feel when handing in those papers.

I miss ditching classes because I wake up too late or my friends influence me to ditch because we're going somewhere, say, mall, lunch, or DOING NOTHING....hahahah *I forbid my parents to know this part*

Yes, yes, you might think I'm nuts. But seriously, now I miss school, especially when I listen to my friends when they're stressed out studying or doing projects.

It gets to the point where I open my old textbooks and start reading!!

I need a headcheck??

Screwed up sleeping time...*again*

Starting months ago, my sleeping time had been right. As in I slept at 1, then woke up at 9 in the morning because I had to go to the office.

I figured, hey, since it's holiday, and I'm in Singapore for a week and don't have to go to the office, why don't I sleep in a little longer??

WRONGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!

The time shifted from 9, to 10, to 11.30, to 12.......

Of course since I've been waking up in the afternoon, my sleeping time changes to. Now I sleep at 3 in the morning!! Sometimes it's 4. It was 5 yesteday.

And at times when I have to wake up at early (hint: under 12 pm), I would sleep by dinnertime and find myself awake in the middle of the night. For example. I had to force myself to open my eyes at 10 because I was meeting my dad at Takashimaya. Then when I got back at 6, two hours later I was in Dreamland.....and woke up at 12.30 in the morning.....

Now I can't sleep..................

Arrgghhh............

I'm in love with this song.......instead of thinking that this song is made for someone, I'd like to think more as this song is made for a thing called love.

"Mungkin takdir ini terlanjur menuntun
Diriku tak dapat pergi darimu
Walaupun seribu bintang tinggalkanku
Dan mentari tak bersinar
Aku takkan mampu untuk lepaskanmu
Mencoba sejenak lupakan
Segalanya yang telah terjadi

Reff:
Duhai cinta
Tataplah aku disini tetap menatapmu
Walau perih terus kau sakiti aku
Tetap mengharapmu

Mungkin benar bila aku tak berarti
Dan dirimu terlalu berarti
Walaupun pekatnya bulan gelapkanku
Dan pelangi tak berpijar
Wajahmu terlalu indah tuk kubenci
Dan kuterus mencintaimu
Engkau terus melupakanku"
~Tito - Kubenci Kau Dengan Cintaku~

So love, don't give up on me yet........

I'm in Singapore againnnnn!!!

Landed at 2 in the afternoon, then 2 hours later I met MH in Tampines with my sis and cousin. 4 of us watched Ice Age 2.

Dunno why, thought I liked the first one more. It was funnier and actually had a story line. MH couldn't say anything because she didn't watch Ice Age 1. I'm actually waiting for the horror movie coming out on Thursday called Black Night hehehehe...Gonna drag MH again to watch. *pretty sure that she's gonna hide from me after she reads this posting*

Dying to see Scary Movie 4. I's coming out In US on 16 of April, but when I checked Singapore's Yahoo, that movie's coming out here on JUNE! FREAKIN JUNE!

Nooooooooooooooo......................*echoing*

And that's in Singapore....what about in Jakarta??

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...............

*postingan gak bermutu*

Had fun, meeting old friends from high school. The 5 of us hung around in Plaza Senayan until it was closed, then we moved to Semanggi coz the guys wanna play pool. So I sat there watching them play while drinking Budwiser hahahahaha....

I miss clubbing, tho.

Oh yeah, I'm going to Singapore again this Sunday. Will be there for a whole week. I think it's gonna be an interesting holiday.

I'm trying not to think of this one person.

No no.......... It's not like I miss him, longing for him, or something....

But this person makes me sick. Like I wanna curse him to death....I've never hated someone like this before but he's like the salt that keeps on rubbing on my wound. And he is THIS close for me to just pick a knife and stab him.......*evil thought*

Oh well...........