"Do you ever wake up in the morning alone?
And do you ever wish that there was some way you could stay at home?
With somebody who love you and needs you
With somebody who helps to complete you

But I've made mistakes and I know for sure
I won't forget to remember

Love isn't always as you see it
Love isn't always as you dream it should be
Love isn't always gonna find you
But this is love cause you're all I'm thinking of

I wanna tell you that I'm sorry I didn't mean that
I wanna say I love you but will I hear those words come back
From somebody who loves me and needs me
From somebody who helps to complete me

But there's one concern that I must consider
Before I start to paint my picture

I'm gonna take my chances
I'm gonna lay my heart out on the line (on the line this time)
I'm gonna love you endlessly
But I'll keep this in the back of my mind"
~Same Same - Love Isn't~

Cinta itu emang ngga selamanya indah. It's nothing like I imagine at all. It seems like all the criterias that you have in mind in finding your love suddenly disappear when you see him.

Does that mean that love is blind, or is it that you just accept him the way he is??

I think......I'm beginning to understand. I'm beginning to grasp the reality. And frankly, I think I'm beginning to let go.

Usually, when you're sick and you're lying in bed with nothing to do....(more likely, too lazy to do anything hehehehe), what other things that you can do to push away all the boredom?

I daydreamt away.

I imagined that I was a superhero saving the world (too many Superman).

I wished that I was someone important.

I imagined having things that I couldn't have.

I wanted him to be here to accompany me chasing the loneliness away.

I thought of things that couldn't happen in my life right now.

I tried to remember my childhood.

I pictured myself as someone who knew everything.

I saw myself die.

Then I wondered.......who'd miss me if I suddenly disappear?

PS: Lagi sakit itu memang bikin kronis keadaan ya??? Bikin suasana jadi mellow, I told you that you're too ignorant. You explained that it's been too long since you had a girlfriend. But I think, you just don't give a fuck.

"Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?"
~Evanescene - Missing~

Kemaren ini gue, roomie, en Nita bantu temen gue, si Bejo buat portfolio. Bejo ini mau buka wedding studio, jadi dia butuh contoh2 buat portfolio dia. Spontan gue nyeret temen gue buat jadi korban pasangan hahahaha, sedihnya gak ada cowo.....kapan lagi jadi model???

Anyways, ternyata cape juga ya?! 2 jam dimake-up, trus dari jam 2 sampe jam 7 moto2 doang 3 pasangan di ruang tamu gue en di kolam air mancur daerah kolam renang apartemen gue. Berikut contoh2 potonya. Gak bisa post banyak, takut dikomplen heuhueheue... Gue ada post beberapa di Friendster juga sey....

"I'm having the day from hell,
It was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hungover (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
Another one ending once again

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself out cause things are mended"
~The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart~

Found this when I was browsing through the cards section in a gift store.

"There is a feeling I sometimes have in the middle of my tummy
It's always makes me smile though it isn't funny
I can't properly describe it
The words I'd choose just won't do
I just know I feel the way I feel
When I start to think of you"

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!

You know that sometimes out of the blue you hear voices inside of you telling you to do stuffs? No no, I'm not talking about a psychology disorder. But it's just an instant thing.

It happened 2 days ago.

My roommie, sis, cousin and I were walking in Takashimaya when we passed by a jewellery shop and we saw a girl getting her ears pierced. The poster said that it was quick, painless, and safe. And I thought, "They could be right, coz after all, it is Singapore." So we're all there watching the girl.

Suddenly my cousin said, "Mine are closed already coz last time I had ear infection..."

And suddenly this voice inside my head spoke up, "Hey, get one of your ear pierced again. You can wear 3 earrings. Cool!" and before I knew it, I tapped my cousin and grinned, "If you get your ears pierced again, I will, too!"

Sigh, thank God my cousin said that she needed more time to think because she's scared of the pain. So we went home.

Until yesterday, my roommie, her friend and I passed by that shop again. She dragged me in, and before I could say anything, I was seated and the lady was preparing the alcohol and everything to get my ear pierced. Since I only wanted one hole, and they couldn't sell only half pair, I dragged my roommie to get one of her ear pierced too. Hahahahaahha.....

Now I have to cover my left ear so my mom and dad can't see the extra earring on my ear. And later on, I'm going with my cousin because she wanted to get her ears done, too, after seeing mine.

Voices inside of me...STOP TALKING!!!!

You and all other indecisive guys.

Why can't you set your mind into something?

Or at least, why can't you all be honest to yourself?

You forget, that I'm a human being.
You forget, that I have feelings
You forget, I can get hurt
You forget, you just forget....

Or maybe, you're just too busy thinking about yourself??

Evil plan.........so far it's working hehehehehehe...............

When life gives you choices, and you're in the state of what I'm in right now....what would you do?

Abuse the previlege of having a free-will?

I'm packing right now.

I'm moving to Singapore!!!

.........for 6 days!

Hahahahahaha.........

Don't mind me, really. I'm just frustrated on what life has thrown at me right now. Why life has so many dilemmas, I have no idea. But for sure, it doesn't make my life easier!