Cut my hair yesterday. I'm still in the state of shock. How could I not be? My long hair, has been butchered into just-right-on-my-shoulder length. At first the hairdresser wanted to cut my hair bob-style, but then I told her that my neck was sensitive and got red easily if there's any object poking it. So she cut it like that........

I can't post the picture, because I haven't taken any. Like I said, I'm still in the state of shock. I'm still getting used to it. Everybody still is getting used to it.

When I woke up today, my hair turned into ducktail alike.

Roommie said that I could get hair extensions hehehehee......but right now I'm pretty much broke.

Bright side yesterday....I watched Pirates!!! Yayyy Orlieeeeeeeee!! But when the movie's done, we're stuck waiting for the lift that never came, maybe because it was almost 2 in the morning. In the end, we took the stairs.

And today...I have a wedding to attend. Great, and I don't know what to do with my crappy hair, since I can't style it coz it's too short.

Thinking of buying a wig....

You might not know, seriously, your words hurt. And when I point it out...you laugh, and have the nerve to say that since I spent most of my time overseas, I might misunderstand those words. You think it's funny, I think it's the most insensitive things that you could have done.

Fuck you....

Now let's see who's laughing if I say that to your face.

I know I'm supposed to gain weight. And so far, I've gained almost 8 kgs. Yup, when I came back to Indo for good last year, I was 32 kgs and now I'm reaching 40.

Now everytime somebody comments, "Hey, you're getting fatter!", what I hear is, "(bleep bleep bleepp) FAT FAT FAT!!!"

Since I'm never ever at 40 kgs...yet....it gives me a scare to know that I'm almost there. So right now, I unconsciously am eating less or just don't eat at all.

Or maybe I can reach that weight and JUST STAY THERE.......

Huhuhuhuh.........life...life....

Inspired from Adhitya, I would like to complain also about how people would usually spell my name wrongly. They always successfully butcher my name into something that I can't even pronounce. ALL Indonesian people apparently can't spell my name. Seriously, is it really hard to spell: CYNTHIA?

Chintia
Cyntia <-- closest
Chyntya
Chyntia
Sintia
Syintia
Syntya
Cintia
Shyntia

When I went to the police station to file a report a missing car's registration, the police had to re-print the paper 4 times to get my name right.

And usually, like Icha's dog after we dressed him up with bandanas or cute stuffs, I would mutter, "Please kill me now.."

One of the most annoying questions that I've heard..."Why aren't you married yet?"

Arrgghhh!!

Yep, I'm fucking annoyed when asked that. So instead, I'll answer, "When I've found someone who buys me diamonds every week, can afford a big house, who'll let me control the finance...by the way, is your son available?"

I'll get married, WHEN I'm ready. As in when I can stand on my own, when I'm stable financially, when HE is ready materially, spiritually, and mentally, when I WANT!

I don't rely on my age to tell me when I should get married. No matter that I'm gonna be 25 next month! Do you really, or honestly, act your age? Is there a certain limit on your age on what you can do, or should do?

Have you ever really, hear a good reason on why people are married? One reason is because you're pregnant...well I can't say anything to that, maybe you could get an abortion (very cruel, but it's really up to the mother) or you could raise your child alone, and of course being gossiped by the aunties around you...

One of my friends, got married because her husband's parents wanted him to, because he's OLD enough to get married, and somehow, she's trapped into this chaos world of marriage and her child, that she couldn't finish her study.

Or even this reason, "Well we both are together for quite a long time, what else but to get married?"

What else? WHAT ELSE? I could give you plenty of reasons what you could do. You could learn to cook, you could earn your first million, you could go bungee jumping, you could go sky diving, or ANYTHING. Don't give me that crap.

And puh-lease, don't tell me that you have to have a family before you're 30 so you should get married now. Because when you realize that this really isn't what you wanted, what can you do? Simply ask to get a divorce??

When I get married, I want it because I can't wait to start my life with the person I love so much..

And when I do, you'll be the first to know. So shut your mouth or at least talk about something else!

Suddenly, I'm craving for yakitoris.....huhuhuhu....

"Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
...I don't love you, like I did, yesterday..."
~My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You~

Seriously, one day when it's over, would you have the guts to say, "I don't love you, like I loved you...", or would you just walk away without any explanation?