Aku rinduwwwwwwwwwww pergi ke Wal-Mart jam 2 pagi
Aku rinduwwwwwwwwwww jalan2 ke Petsmart
Aku rinduwwwwwwwwwww minum French Vanilla Cappuccino di Denny's
Aku rinduwwwwwwwwwww baca buku di Borders
Aku rinduwwwwwwwwwww Costco, Target, Ralph, Vons.......

Sigh, I guess you can't never really leave a place where you have lived for 5 years.

When two hearts have separated too far, is it wise to hope for a reunion? When goodbyes have been said, can I hope for a hello? When you know for sure that you can't be together, can I still wish for a future for us?

Because really, I don't understand why my heart is still beating.

Life, unlike people say, is not unfair. Life, my friend, is ironic!!!

You see, when finally today I was able to wake up early to shower and force him to drive me to the school of Tere to buy some "jajanan" like fish cake, ice cream, ice cream with pudding and bread, etc, I CAN'T EAT!!!!! Usually I long for the day when Dad isn't coming to lunch with me, so I could drag Dita and Juni to buy lunch there. And I really wouldn't want to wake up early on Saturday and get ready just so I could buy foods that I like there. Unhealthy, but delicious and bring back memories when I was still in grades school.

Anyway.....But today, when I finally was able to wake up early and do all that.....my cheek hurt so bad that I can't chew, not even to open my mouth. Oh the irony!!!!!

So I satisfied myself with some ice cream (I had to wait for it to melt so I could DRINK it) and that's all. Everytime I opened my mouth, is everytime my tears would come out because it's so painful.

Another irony?? I'm going to Blow Fish because of Asuk's birthday. Don't know if I could have fun (see, if I'm not almost drunk, I won't dance because I would be so self-conscious, and if I can't drink, I can't get drunk!!!!). The ironic part, D just called me and said that he's going there with Robert and Bebenk.

NOoooooooooooo!!!!!!!

PS: Having swollen cheek is the fab way to diet. You can't eat, you can't chew. All you can do is drink. Try it....so far...I've lost 1 kg in a day!!!!!

After bumming around in the office for freaking one and a half year...finally today I had something to do!!!! Too much to do, in fact, that it was hectic from morning til the evening.

As for today, I'm taking care of the diesel for the trucks in the logging's camp. So the buying, paying and claiming fall under my hand. And today, too, I've been crazy doing the calculating of the amount that I should pay, the amount that I should ask from the company, etc....

Coba yah, pas dateng2 ke kantor, gue langsung disambut dengan buku Cek en Bilyet Giro dari sekertaris bokap untuk menunjukkan kalo account yang baru buat solar udah dibuka. Jadi setelah bengong sejenak, gue telpon bank buat cek saldo. Trus gue buka Microsoft Exel en mulai bikin2 pembukuan buat tu rekening. Baru aja gue ketik "Bank International Indonesia" di garis paling atas, Om gue udah telp kalo bokap gue udah nyampe di kantornya (see, I'm in 7th floor, while Dad's in 12th). Langsung aja gue naik lift ke atas en baru aja nongolin batang idung, gue langsung dikasih tau kalo duit buat itu rekening udah di RTGS tadi pagi en kalo udah masuk duitnya, gue harus bayar solar SAAT ITU JUGA! Gue ya langsung panik, secara pas gue cek saldo, tu duit belom masuk. Jadi gue nyengir pasrah en bilang kudu nunggu 2 jam kale baru nyampe. Jadi gue duduk2 di sofa bokap sambil ngemil pisang meanwhile Babe didatengin sekertaris2 buat tanda tangan cek.

Dan setelah ngobrol2, jam 12 siang gue cek lagi tu bank buat RTGS. Ternyata udah masuk ding! So I went downstairs to write the check and fill in the form for payment soalnya tu alat2 berat di camp butuh solar lagi. Baru aja nulis setengah, terus Bokap telp gue en suruh turun ke lobby buat pergi makan siang. PANIC TIME!

When I got downstairs, my uncle asked me if I had sent the money, and of course I answered, "Well, I was writing the check when y'all told me to go down." Dad turned around and said, "Go back upstairs and finish it....It's alright, we'll wait for you here." Dan gue kayak orang bego pas balik naik, up to the 7th floor. Even the recepcionist got confused as she just waved goodbye to me like 5 minutes ago.

Fast forward.....

Balik makan, gue mulai menggila lagi di depan komputer. Nulis tagihan buat solar ke perusahaan lain, nyatet2 kapan tu solar dateng ke camp, filing those papers, etc. Doing A LOT OF THINGS at the same time apparently can make you crazy.

And before I know it, it's time to go home.

YAY!

But I got headache now....

Happy birthday, you
You, the one who's still haunting my dreams
You, the one who're still in my heart
You, the one that I can't let go of
Happy birthday.........

Days go by like blur. It's like living in hazy phase. Oh well, you have ups, and you have downs....and I blame it on the Pill that I'm taking.